Mother, should I trust the government?

Mood: Calm
Weather: Cold
Listening to: Iggy Pop
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Unsweetened Tea
Wearing: shorts and a tank top
Wanting: Starbucks Coffee
Thinking about: going to bed soon

So today I was greeted with coffee in bed, no sugar for once [trying to cut as much sugar as possible] just vanilla creamer, which I downed in about thirty, forty-five seconds. I found out that I LOVE coffee in bed, it is the BEST way to start out your day. So soon after I was on to my second cup. By the time I actually got out of bed, I was ready to clean and organize my room. Fletcher helped me which was awesome because I probably couldn't have done it without his help... but it looks a lot nicer in here. Before now all the clutter on top of surfaces and on the floor was driving me insane. But now it is amazing and organized and comfy.
I talked to my grandpa today. My Dad's Dad. I haven't talked to him in 8 years. I saw him at my Uncle Jesse's funeral... but he usually keeps to himself. He calls it being "reclusive." I really look forward to talking to him more, it has been so long, and the entire time I have wanted to talk to him. When I was little he made me little creatures out of wire. One that specifically stands out is a dragonfly, with beads for eyes. Those little creatures fascinated me. I can't believe after so long we are talking. I'm hoping my dad and him will be able to talk, since it has been years since he spoke with his dad. During instant messaging him, his fingers started to hurt so he had to get offline, but I am hoping that we can talk via webcam and microphone so he won't hurt. He seems like a great poetic, mysterious person with a lot of insight and humor. He told me after I showed him a couple pictures of myself that I looked exactly like my dad if my dad were beautiful. haha. I can't wait to talk to him more. I'm hoping when I move to Portland that I will be able to hang out with him, my uncle Jason and my Aunt Melissa, his other kids, and really get to know all of them. I know I will get to hang out with him. I just hope I can get my shit togeter and do what i need to do to go to college in at least the winter, then I will be able to transfer my credits to Portland. It's all a lot to think about.
I'm hoping people will read my blog and talk to me, I really want to get to know more people. Especially intelligent, intellectual people that I could have deep conversations with. My mind just keeps going and going... like a battery or an interstate highway. I think it is time for me to rest my head and hopefully welcome dreamland. \\// ciao <3