Didn't know it would be so hard...

Well today my parents left. I'm in Seaside, California with Fletcher. It's been a long time since I've blogged anything, because it's been a very confusing time in my life. I've moved for several reasons, but I love this boy and intend to never let him go. I didn't realize it would be so hard to say goodbye to my parents. In Oregon I spent so much time dealing with my family crying and trying to find little ways to test the waters to see if I would stay home, but I knew I had to get out of Medford. I love it here. It's taking a little while to get Fletcher to actually get out and show me around, but he's still working on getting everything organized, doing the smart thing, and I'm just anxious to get out and see the place! Yesterday my parents and fletcher and I went down to the wharf and the ocean was beautiful! I'm still so, so excited about living on the beach. The ocean is all around me!!! I still can't believe it. We walked down the beach and saw people making a huge sand castle. As we walked down the wharf we saw some sea lions, and saw some that were directly under the dock! it was crazy. They were barking at us. It's been hard for me to sleep since I got here. Today my parents picked us up and we drove to Santa Cruz and just walked up and down the beach and boardwalk and it was really cool to be there with my parents. We walked back to the van to have a sandwich and we saw a crazy chick in a hotel across the street throwing someone's stuff out of the window, and it looked like she threw about 10 starting pot plants out the window, and all kinds of other stuff. A lot of it hit other people's cars and one guy got hit in the head. She was clearly intoxicated on something!!! When my parents brought me back to Fletcher's place my mom hugged me and the tears starting flowing for me for the first time, other than while I was hugging mikey and he actually cried too. That touched my heart. My mom sounded really sad and scared and it made me cry. My dad has been crying for a month, pretty much. My parents' roles are totally reversed, and I love it. My mom was the one stressing out about money, and being overly-agro, and my dad was the one who could barely look at me without getting choked up. Maybe I'll write a book someday, well I plan on writing a lot, but definitely about everything that has happened. Everything in my life is so unique and that just makes me start thinking about everyone elses lives, and it just amazes me. I look around me and see so much beauty and I feel inspired. I feel scared a little, but I know it's just because I've never been here, I've never been very far away from my family and the place I was born, let alone over 450 miles!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm very happy and mixed up emotions right now, But I'm so so happy to be with Fletcher in a new, beautiful place.

[and this place supposedly has a great art scene!!!!! so excited!]